Will I ever lose this feeling? I might have let you down. I think of you constantly, even when you’re not around. You gave me something, to believe in. And for you. I’ll always follow through.
As you grow older. To become the man you’ll be. The different sides of your life, will decide your beliefs. While letting you go is saddening. In watching the little boy fade, there’s memories to be made.
Sometimes maybe I worry. Just a little more than I should. Thinking back on where I went wrong, I know I tried as hard as I could.
The man you’ll be. Your beliefs.
Music & Lyrics: 7-7-05 *For Bastian* By: Breye 7x for Provision Musik Live Latin Percussion performed by Breye 7x
Recorded and Produced at Red Square Digital by Breye 7x, Carlos Covarrubias, & Jen Foxx. Mastered by Brian Hazard at Resonance Mastering.
Fade is the 4th song that I wrote for my son Bastian.
Rather than lose custody in my divorce case, I gave primary custody of Bastian to his mother. I felt I had let my son down by not continuing to fight for him, but I was out of money; and more than anything I just wanted resolve.
I only get to see him 8 days a month, and the only way I can describe how I feel is that I truly live with a broken heart. Everyday that passes by, I'll never get back. All this time that I lose in not getting to see him grow up, just kills me more inside each day.
I have never blamed myself for the end, that became of his mother and I. I know I tried as hard as I could. And to this day I still do the same for my son.
Fade, is my solemn promise to never let him down again; and to always be here no matter what. I Love You Bastian.
Breye 7x
Fade was only performed live once. March 16th 2006 at Numbers in Houston, Texas for the Official C.D. Release of The Consequence.